Okay! I admit that I am a wreck about her starting school on Monday. Those who know me should not be surprised. I am a control freak and do not like to have no control over what will happen while she is at school. I use to not be this bad, but when your child has medical and physical problems you become worse. I trust the school and feel that they will do a great job, but still it is not me or family:)
As the day gets closer I have millions of thoughts running through my head: I am worried about what to pack for lunch, will she eat it, will the other kids play with her, will she cry, will she be left in her chair on the playground and not taken to slide, how will her health hold out, will they change her diaper enough, will she be worked with, will she like her new therapist, and the list goes on and on and on. I am not sleeping well due to all the thinking.
I know that this my all seem crazy since she is only there for three hours a day. But she is my special little fighter who has faced so much in the past and I am just scared.
I am sure it all will be okay and I am losing sleep for no reason. I really do trust her new school. I am excited for Emma. I am sure she will love it all and do just wonderful. She loves kids and loves to play.
Just a little rant
Monday, August 3, 2009
The last couple of nights Emma has been visiting us in the middle of the night. She, without making noise, gets out of her bed and scoots on her bottom all the way across our house to our room, and I wake up to her tugging on my covers. It is so werid to have her be able to get to us at night. However, it is so funny to see the smile on her face because she is so proud of herself for making it to mommy and daddy. It is a little scary though to have her wake us like that. Now, I am waking a lot to look to see if she is in our room, and I am having dreams of finding her laying on the floor in the living room asleep or something. But she willing goes back to her room with a little drink and a fresh diaper. So, far she has done this four times. I must admit that I find it funny to have her sneaking out of her room to find us.
I am also loving it since, it is such a normal three year old behavior to have her getting out of bed. That is something new for us, but I am loving this normal behavior. Yes, I am sleepy but smiling inside and out that my baby girl is so big and such a toddler.
We are having to be more careful of leaving doors open since she is getting up, but so far no injuries or messes. Just fun and freedom.
She did pull to stand beside her toddler bed from sitting on the ground. Big step for Emma and we are so proud of her and her little legs. Keep up the good work!
Love and more nightime visitors